Friday, April 11, 2008
Lord, give me patience with my sweet Tyler.....
So, it seems that my fellow blogger who just happen to be my best friends have been opening up on their blog. This is hard for me because when I put new posts up, I only want to share the happy things going on with the cute pictures. So, here we go. This is what I have been struggling with lately....
For those who don't know Tyler that well, he is a very curious little guy. He probably gets this from me at least that is what my husband tells me. I am very curious I guess but as an adult, I can contain the majority of it to myself. But my sweet 4 year old doesn't contain anything.
So lately he has had a question for every 3rd and 4th question. All day long I answer questions for him and most the time there is no answers for him. Bless his heart, he just wants knowledge I tell myself. I have thought that I could blog all of the questions he asked in one day and then blog them so you could see. But, I catch myself getting so frustrated with him that I don't want to answer him much less type them all out on my blog. It literally drains me.
This is awful and I feel so guilty because I know it is my job to raise him and get him ready for school and the world. I don't mind answering the questions that there is an answer for. It is the 3rd and 4th questions like a snowball effect that sends me over the edge and it is about everything all day long!
i.e. We drove past Hawaiian Falls the other day and he noticed the big water slides. He asked me what is that for....I have an answer for him...No problem, right? I tell him what it is and that maybe we will go when it gets hotter outside. Then we turn and go on down the road and he always says huh, not b/c he didn't hear but b/c he didn't catch everything I just told him and he has to know everything I just said! So I repeat what I just said.....not frustrated yet at this point unless Haylee is screaming or something. Then he moves to the 3rd question (2nd question was the Huh?) But, where did it go?.... Back there, mommy turned!....getting a little frustrated. (4th ?) But where mommy? as he tries to turn around......Behind us Tyler. (5th) But why........ now I'm getting pretty frustrated.... Because we turned Tyler......But where is it? So as you can see the questions start over and I want it to end so I end up most of the time yelling at him and tell him no more answers. I also started telling him...You ask too many questions Tyler which I wish I could take back. He now turns that around and tells me that when I am asking him important questions.
See, I am already spent telling you about it. This is my day all day. It is about one thing or another. The questions have been going on for a while but the past few weeks he has been doing that dead end brick wall thing with the questions. Ryan is good to tune him out when he gets to that point and it stops but he doesn't deal with it all day like me. Any advise is welcome. I don't want Tyler to think I don't want to hear what he has to say or to push him away. Lord, help me to see things through Tyler's eyes and to have extreme patience with him. Hep me to be renewed each day and to have more mercy towards Tyler.
On a side note..... if you could pray for him....he has been getting scared at night and even during the day. Dark rooms and going to bed have been not very fun lately. He has even been waking up in the middle of the night which is very frustrating. Not sure if it is this but, it has been going on since we went to the Zoo. He doesn't mention the Zoo or animals, just monsters and noises.